It really is quite brilliant that I can do the whole arty, photo taking etc thing now for relaxation and enjoyment, instead of feeling pressured into it. I kind of lost my love and obsession for drawing and what not over the last few years, and now it finally seems to be seeping back into me, which is great, because I was lacking a much needed emotional outlet.
I love knowing I can just experiment with what I'm doing, and hopefully discover new things and improve while I'm at it. So with a week to go before I leave Hull and my uni life for good, its great to be able to vent my feelings onto paper, instead of pathetically holding it all inside. Its strange how much emotion a piece of paper can hold.

Oh and on another note-
Go look at the photos added by I think they are beautiful myself

Ah yes doesn't 3 years go quick, university is done, finished, over!!!! I think I have failed most of it, but as long as I pass my theory piece I don't give a flying frog. I've only got a month left in Hull, which is rather depressing, actual it is very very depressing (any one fancy playing the world smallest violin just for me). Then again maybe a change will do me some good, open some new doors, lead me down an interesting path or two (fingers crossed).
I have a new place to move into (with my sister and her girlfriend- should be fun, haven't lived with her since I was about 13 hehe), so the next few months is going to busy, busy, but yes everything is going plan, wish me luck hehe.

M

Going back to my hometown for just over a week (I'm doomed, don't want to leav my lovely little flat ). I've got a ton of packing to do, and only a few hours to do it, but I just can't be bothered to start. On a lighter note, I've nearly completed my prep for my fast approaching interview at UWE (ouh scary), I have a showreel (vvvv bad), and some drawings and paintings mounted (also vvvvv bad hehe), now I've just got to make another animation disc and look through old essays (which as I remember are also shockingly vvvv bad).
Right well no net for a week *sigh* and a week tomorrow I'll be 21, which is scary and wrong, since I've got so much to do I really can't party, but my mum won't take no for an answer and has got me booked for the whole weekend to do birthday fun things (bless her hehe), and then when I get back to Hull its the Birthday party with the friends, and then the next morning me and get on the train (possible, ahem actually no doubt about it in my case, dying and hungover, ohhh I feel sick even thinking about it doooooomed I say dooooomed ) to go to Bristol for interview the next day. First things first though, pack, go home, unpack, get used to not being allowed to anything for myself and being mothered to hell and back, then animate, and then hehe hehe hehe play on FFXII- oh its been so long( my TV up here is dead- urm I kinda hit it, a number of times, a few times with an urm hammer.....poor tv poor tv). Anyway the lack of sleep is making me yatter on pointlessly.
Goodbye.....need rum...tumtetum...where is the rum...why is there never any rum...

Meh its late but I'm still working on my animation project, animating a rather grim looking grim reaper is not easy, let me tell you. Anyway most of the stuff I've been submitting of late has been photographic, but I have got some drawings I've done recently to scan in. I've been trying to improve stuff like that since I've got an interview at UWE to do my masters in a month (its a shock, I never expected to even make it too the interview stage), and even though I'm going go in there I pretty much say 'me like to write, me like critical theory, my animation very bad, me write, no animate grrr' (of course in much understandable exceptable way) I thought I better do some more drawings so I actually have a portfolio. Anyway, so yes, more of my bad bad drawings of cr*pness on the way.
Now back to work, only 4 more frames to go tonight wahooo....

Well here I am sitting drinking a bottle of Lindemans bin 50 shiraz (lovely lovely wine, and my local just happens to have it on offer.) So yes I'm sitting here relaxing, drinking red wine because my family is at war at the moment and I am the one everyone turns to. This is rather annoying since I'm the youngest, but hey I'm the one who will listen to everyone, deal with it and sort it out, and in the end I'm the most willing to listen and look after them because I love them, I've already lost the most important person in the world to me and I won't lose anyone else!
So yes this is the best way for me to relax, the other ways are just evil ad bad hehe, but also in this stressed, confused, want to scream mood I've started two drawings, and well so far they are looking pretty good. One is a very dark piece (hey I'm in a dark/ light happy/ stressed place) and the second is just well many eyes hehe. I should post them in the next couple of days, depending on if I decide to colour them or not.

MJ


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